title : between friends and future, between INTEC and UM, between Malaysia and Jordan
it's the day.
butterflies kept flying in my stomach ._.
I BADLY WANNA ENTER UM . BADLY WANT IT.
hours before, i received a text message from my
friend, Amin. guess what, he told me he
was accepted into UM. and i was like whuttttttttt ?
i really really really wanna enter UM . my only
hope and goal; UNIVERSITY OF MALAYA.
but why ? because of VSG . VSG who? VSG what?
and here is VSG. :)
VSG is a girls group consists of 8 members of
cheeky and hyper smart girls and built based on platonic love :D
sweet and sour, heaven and hell, hard and easy,
all with them :')
I MISS VSG, i guess. :')
3 of VSG applied UM, and the 3 (including me)
are my dearest besties. very dear, very close and they are my darling ;')
Alhamdulillah, i got the UM thingy !! i was so
happy that i could die :P
and praises to ALLAH, the three of us accepted to
UM too :)
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| qish, mairah, muni :) |
alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah :)
i hugged my mum, i cried, i screamed and i did
things i never do before. i was like a crazy creature. alhamdulillah . i even
did the sujud syukur . how i really thanked god for the gift . alhamdulillah wa
syukurillah :)
then the MARA loan thingy were about to be
announced. i prayed hard so that i was not the chosen one. i dont want the
loan. i even promised my mama that i wont accept the loan as i already got what
i wanted; my goal ;D
and THANK GOD, i didnt get that loan. all of us
(maahadians) werent able to get that
MARA loan.
TO BE FRANK, I WAS SO HAPPY . haha. SO THE FATE
WONT SEPARATE US TO DIFFERENT COUNTRIES AND FUTURES. my only aims that time
were being together with my girls.
but that good news aint stop there.
after every rainbow, there'll be hot striking
sun that will fade the rainbow away.
days after, i got a shocking news. news that
made me cried. news that made me realize that i will lose my dearest. news that
will separate us apart :(
AMIN and AMEER got JPA SCHOLAR of MEDICINE to
JORDAN.
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| AMEER and AMIN the guardians :) |
and what the hell was that? i thought the MARA
will stop suffer us. but it didnt happen that way :'(
i saw their teacher's status on fb, stating
that they got the scholar :/ i tried to be calm, but i cant :(
i was soooo upset. so despair. they'll leave
me. so sooon :(
i rang amin, and he was so excited, not to
mention his mum. then i rang amer to congratulate him. after that, i cried . i
cried so hard. because the news upsetting me. indeed. :(
and then they asked me to re-checked my scholar
status. but i refused. idk why. the tears blurred my vision and my mind, led me
to a brain-damaged thinking. then a few friends volunteered to check it, but
that's fine. i could do it by myself :/
i turned on the lappy, connecting the network,
googling for the scholar status-checking page, and typed my friend's ID number
first. she was much smarter than me, and her SPM result was inspiring though,
yet she didnt get that scholar. then i lose hope.
actually i never put hope on it. i even didnt
want to pursue overseas. shame on me. :/
with bismillah, (with the hope that i didnt get
it), i typed my ID.
OH MY GOD
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD.
i got that scholar!!!!!!
and i hate that feeling.
so should i take it or leave it? it's about my
future.
after soooooo many consultations with my family
members, teachers and friends, i grabbed that scholar.
and now i dont know how to tell that to my
dearest VSG :/
i cried and cried till my face got swollen.
days after, i went shopping with my girls.
seriously, i didnt know how to tell my bestest
friend, QISH about this.
she knew nothing. she knew i got that scholar
but she never expected i will agreed to pursue oversea.
and once the bad news was broken, she remained
silent.
i thought she was fine, and just go with the
flow, but i was wrong.
that night, she rang me, and first word i could
hear was MAIRAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. with scream and sob.
she wasnt able to speak. she cried and cried
and i was a little bit panic.
and she said , WHY OUT OF ALL PEOPLE IN THIS
WHOLE WORLD, U WERE THE ONE WHO WILL LEAVE ME?? AND IT HAPPENS SO SOOOOOOOOOOONN!
WHY U DIDNT TELL ME EARLIER? I WAS CALM, AS I AM GOOD AT PRETENDING. BUT U
DIDNT KNOW HOW DOES I FELT LIKE. LIKE I WAS LOSING PART OF ME!
and then it was me who kept silent. :(
the promise to be in UM together was broken.
btw, this is her :) we went shopping yesterdayyyyy ;)
and this is us, PASUMIAN and INTECIANS iftar-ing in SOGO
“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
Name : Nurhamizah bt Nurdin 
Name : Siti Aishah Humairah bt Mohamad Lokman
Name : Faizatul Alia bt Ibrahim Exstara
